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6/5 3am
I was going to do my laundry when I saw the hostel cat that I usually bump into, its a cat with light brown chocolate colour and white color stripes. She jumped on a chair and rest on it instead. I watched the little kitty slacking there with careful eyes and decided to bring her some little biscuit to eat.... well too bad, she left by the time I brought biscuit.
But then again. as I walk back to my room, I realised how pretty the sky is. =)
6/5 9am
The class starts n goes on as how the routine of revision class goes. Today is the last day of revision class for F7 Financial Reporting class. I really had a great time in this class learning from some nice friend around, knowing them more, and see-ing them blindly powered up themselves for academic results. You know what ppl say, play hard, study hard, sleep hard.. there must be at least ONE that u cannot balance. (Just in case you don't know, sleep hard affects health, play hard affects emotion, how to balance? XD I donno)
6/5 7pm
When the class ends we took photo with our lovely lecturer Santa, really had one heck of a productive week, studying 10-12 hours a day is really killing your stamina.
Before the mountain eats the sun, I invited KerSin for a little afternoon walk n we end up chatting quite a lot. :P If she reads all these then she is probably going to nag me for it. Well who is KerSin? Character background: a simple girl who trying to cope herself into the new world. Welcome~
She spent too much of time studying n scoring n realised(I wonder if its by herself or is it because of me? :X) that doing these kind of repetitive stress-n-study hard for results thingy isn't going to make her life any better. But its a tough case for her to get into socialise circle straight away with her mommy kind of thinking that this world is complicated n should be treated with care n perhaps human should be more simple. (Actually without wisdom, I tink its human themselves who try to complicate things out) :P
Hehe we ended up our conversation with she saying that she is stubborn n may be very hard for her to change while I trying to scold her for her pessimism. :P Well, I learnt something today that reflects my thought:
Success is not how high a person can climb.!! its how high he can bounce when he hit bottom..!!! - Exactly my kind of optimism, I call this 'life'. :)
7/5 10am
Woke up at 6am facebook-ing all the way in the morning n virtual MouseHunting until I got the mood to walk around n grab my breakfast. I went to SunwayPyramid n saw Astro Talent Quest Production trying to advertise their shows there. It's another kind of nice experience for me :D
The day keeps going until around 3pm where I decided to go back hometown for Mother's day. Despite being UNLIKED(facebook term) in my family, nothings gonna change if I choose to be ignorant. Ignorant is no bliss. When you hate ur world, u gonna start changing it now.
Like what my lecturers always remind us of:
If u want to do something, you must put in your effort into it! You can change Nothing if u never do Anything! It's not hard, its never hard. It's just about the effort!
The day keeps going until around 3pm where I decided to go back hometown for Mother's day. Despite being UNLIKED(facebook term) in my family, nothings gonna change if I choose to be ignorant. Ignorant is no bliss. When you hate ur world, u gonna start changing it now.
Like what my lecturers always remind us of:
If u want to do something, you must put in your effort into it! You can change Nothing if u never do Anything! It's not hard, its never hard. It's just about the effort!
7/5 8pm
I took the bus to Kuantan from PekelilingStation @ around 5pm. I reach there unexpectedly early n I m quite surprise. Haha during the trip I decided to SMS n say thankyou to my fellow coursemates who had been really a warm scarf in the winter for me in this sem. Amidst the peer stresser and the competition aura-r, they are those people who decide Not to ignore my crappy old-mom style mumbling to lecture them to get a better life instead of aimlessly heading somewhr called 'Successful life with a successful piece of paper called result'. I liked them a lot, they are talented, hardworking, n nice. But this world twisted them... cruel, I would say, or maybe stress is just that important to push someone to work harder? I dono. But for me... If u never learn to love, nothing will love you. Be appreciative, love those around you, they give you more love than you ever care to get.
I took the bus to Kuantan from PekelilingStation @ around 5pm. I reach there unexpectedly early n I m quite surprise. Haha during the trip I decided to SMS n say thankyou to my fellow coursemates who had been really a warm scarf in the winter for me in this sem. Amidst the peer stresser and the competition aura-r, they are those people who decide Not to ignore my crappy old-mom style mumbling to lecture them to get a better life instead of aimlessly heading somewhr called 'Successful life with a successful piece of paper called result'. I liked them a lot, they are talented, hardworking, n nice. But this world twisted them... cruel, I would say, or maybe stress is just that important to push someone to work harder? I dono. But for me... If u never learn to love, nothing will love you. Be appreciative, love those around you, they give you more love than you ever care to get.
And so... yea, I reached Kuantan n attended my cousin's bday party(bday celebration in advance) n greet her with great joy n happiness. Yes I do have a thing for kids. I always like simple minded ppl. I like to inspire ppl just as much as how I like to be inspired.
I may try to impress ppl or even going to amaze them by 'mind reading' their thoughts n end up telling them "I don't read mind, I study behaviors." But in the end of the day, theres nvr anything as complicated as this world as a whole. All as one n one for all. whether u r religious onot it doesnt really matter, because for me. Simplicity is life, just like what I said about optimism. When you believe it, it's there. :) My parents welcomed me back home with surprised face n happy smile on this night... I guess its kinda true that when they say Victory comes when you believe it most, and believe it the longest. =)
I may try to impress ppl or even going to amaze them by 'mind reading' their thoughts n end up telling them "I don't read mind, I study behaviors." But in the end of the day, theres nvr anything as complicated as this world as a whole. All as one n one for all. whether u r religious onot it doesnt really matter, because for me. Simplicity is life, just like what I said about optimism. When you believe it, it's there. :) My parents welcomed me back home with surprised face n happy smile on this night... I guess its kinda true that when they say Victory comes when you believe it most, and believe it the longest. =)
8/5 9am
After the very tiring trip to TasikChini with my family, we returned home with fatigue carried n everyone decided to rest. I meanwhile, after nap for around 10 minutes, decided to facebook update my status xD and plan ahead what I am going to do for the rest of the day before I go back to KL tomorrow. I went to WanFoShi(biggest temple in Kuantan) n pray for family's health, safety, and also my own good luck for things. Surprisingly I found out that in this small little town of Kuantan, I find peace in almost everything I do. Except for being home. I enjoyed the beach, the seawind, the children playing kites, the little jogging park, the clean shopping mall, and also today's view of artistic natural scenery beside this Buddhism worship centre whr I saw Malays n other ppl actually came here for the nice view. Nice to know that everyone lives in harmony here, this kind of scene is really one of a kind for me. Even thou reality always remind us to be strong. I nvr want to cease my faith on having hopes for an ever better tomorrow. XD
Despite the fact that I m constantly baffled by the fact that people around me still tends to perceive things in a rather selfish manner n justify it by counting how many ppl who actually agrees with them, I think that when the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace. Love.... its such an amazing power that I cannot comprehend, must lest to say about to grasp it, I simply do not deserve it, yet. But I do hope whoever reading this, it might be just around u, embrace it. :)
Despite the fact that I m constantly baffled by the fact that people around me still tends to perceive things in a rather selfish manner n justify it by counting how many ppl who actually agrees with them, I think that when the power of love overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace. Love.... its such an amazing power that I cannot comprehend, must lest to say about to grasp it, I simply do not deserve it, yet. But I do hope whoever reading this, it might be just around u, embrace it. :)
9/9 3am
As always, one of the reasons that I nvr liked to come back to my hometown is because of the dilemma I always have to face. I always wanted to come back home, but this place nvr stop teaching me that reality is harsh n I should nvr ever stop trying to get stronger no matter how tired I gets. Time doesn't stop for u, nothing waits. It's true... it's the very core of the reality. Having a family who loves whatever contradict with what I learnt in accounting, sometimes I simply find everything amusing to me, although it seems kinda sad. Accounting stated that u must always see the true nature of a transaction, the fair presentation of value incorporate in it. But in my family the constant review of such philosophy only shows that they matter 'face value' more instead of 'substance over legal form'. For whatever they do, they don't use their own faith. Like many others there, as long as the society agrees with u, that IS who you are. ppl get mad all the time, so should ya; parents scold kids all the time, ofcoz we do; old haggies are experiencist, no doubt kids are dumb. Is that what you think?
If this DIARY portray nonsense n nothing else, I would really want to tell EVERYONE SOMETHING ABOUT ME. AND HOW I LIVED.
As always, one of the reasons that I nvr liked to come back to my hometown is because of the dilemma I always have to face. I always wanted to come back home, but this place nvr stop teaching me that reality is harsh n I should nvr ever stop trying to get stronger no matter how tired I gets. Time doesn't stop for u, nothing waits. It's true... it's the very core of the reality. Having a family who loves whatever contradict with what I learnt in accounting, sometimes I simply find everything amusing to me, although it seems kinda sad. Accounting stated that u must always see the true nature of a transaction, the fair presentation of value incorporate in it. But in my family the constant review of such philosophy only shows that they matter 'face value' more instead of 'substance over legal form'. For whatever they do, they don't use their own faith. Like many others there, as long as the society agrees with u, that IS who you are. ppl get mad all the time, so should ya; parents scold kids all the time, ofcoz we do; old haggies are experiencist, no doubt kids are dumb. Is that what you think?
If this DIARY portray nonsense n nothing else, I would really want to tell EVERYONE SOMETHING ABOUT ME. AND HOW I LIVED.
I'm going to ask u all a ques. WHATEVER YOU DO, IS IT OKAY FOR YOU ONLY TO BE HAPPY?
Whether you scored world prize in ACCA, win Olympics game, make the whole world proud n respect u by developing Ipad2, or simply become someone who gets jealous of all these ppl. Is it okay for you only to be happy? What is the meaning of everything if u don't have anyone around you when you win? If they really cared that much after you attain ur victory, they should have been there the moment of ur defeat. Becoz they believe in u, through ur heart, not through what you show them on the surface. When theres a winner, the rest are all losers. Is it really okay just for you only to be happy? I always question myself this n whatever I do, often based on my conscious answer of this question. This is just me. Fullstop.
Whether you scored world prize in ACCA, win Olympics game, make the whole world proud n respect u by developing Ipad2, or simply become someone who gets jealous of all these ppl. Is it okay for you only to be happy? What is the meaning of everything if u don't have anyone around you when you win? If they really cared that much after you attain ur victory, they should have been there the moment of ur defeat. Becoz they believe in u, through ur heart, not through what you show them on the surface. When theres a winner, the rest are all losers. Is it really okay just for you only to be happy? I always question myself this n whatever I do, often based on my conscious answer of this question. This is just me. Fullstop.
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